Sunday, July 10, 2005

mann.! stupid comm.! all my files kena deleted. ALL laa. wad the. pver 500 of em laa. man. i'm just looking everywhere fer all e pics and stuff la.
right. fridae.- choir. yeaa. good one i gueess. rehearsals fer e 10th yr anii was oso good. but very rushed.
sat- havin bad swings. bel really neeeds help and i dunno how to help her.! ahhh. so my poor laopo had to hear my nonsense. ahhh. stupid stupid stupid. and my ulcers are getting worse. dun even feel like eeating elr. plus i'm havin a sore thriat pus cough and flu. how bad can it get.?!
what the.

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 12:01 PM

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Wednesday, July 06, 2005

what mann. todae mr lim ask me stayback fer 'math coaching'. specially fer 7 ppl. includidng me. ((x hahaha.
lol. then met my gi na's at e bbal court. play and play then my 'ke xing' shunjie appreared. then once i stepped into court, i wanted jump ball grab his ball then his ball went straight into my hand, full force. WTF. my finger and palm now disfigured laa. idiot. pain la pian la.! ahhhhh.!
tml havin P.E is gonna be so horrendous with this thingy. arghh. stupid shunjie.
and i'm havin bad ulcers. this is so not good. urgh.

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 8:15 PM

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Monday, July 04, 2005

right. todae i went to play badminton despite my muscle aches. ahhh. right. great game laa.
mmm. i'm on e phone with a spastic mad child. timo. LOL. crapping. hahaha. right. continue entertaining him.

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 8:34 PM

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Sunday, July 03, 2005

LOL. nothing to post actually. my leg ish just hurting real badly. bai kaa. yeaa.
and on fri night, i dunno why but i started crying real bad. yaa. wanted to call certain ppl but my hp wasn't with me. then buay ta han called liying hu called jerome into a conference call. i was practically crying throughout e whole convo la. but somehow those 2 crappers cheered me up. haha. yeaa. don't ask me why i cried cos i dunno myself. LOL.
right. i'm looking forward to bball later at GM's hse. wonder how am i supposed to jump with my aching legs. hahaha.
right. toodles`
<3

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 10:22 AM

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Thursday, June 30, 2005

LOL. 1st was nuts over bball. now badminton. hahaha. right. todae went stadium play with cheehow,tianjun,james,chongren,laopo,liying,yeanjun and junjiee. yeaa. great game man.! woohoo. i'm sho proud of myself. i won a BAIKA. waahahah. i improved ler anywae. hahaha.
right. so after tt went bball court with liying and jun. met ming da darren n shun jie they all plus all e other kids. yeaaa. then darren and shunjie were busy 'ferrying' or 'fetching' me on their bikes. darren got me a bad scracth on my left calf then shunjie worst. i ask him let me go down he just ride sooo fast then break. i crashed onto him laa. waa. then now see both my calf got sum wired gauze one. yucks. look so stupid.
i'm like havin muscle aches now. mr siah P.E was stupid. ahhhh. then badminton was oso strainful. now my kneecap ish aching again. ahhh. damn it.

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 8:27 PM

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Wednesday, June 29, 2005

hahaha.todae went fer KSS's tonament. last few mintues were draw. then few seconds later KSS fouled BVSS. yaa. then they got one free shot in. yaa. 29-28. man.! lost by one pt. it's okie laa. KSS jia you.! yea. then i ehard from sze han,who was oso there said BP was cuming. oh iccc. yeaa. and i was freaking out when i saw them laa. yay. BP rox.! they DUH won laa. thks to strategy. weee. JT was still star player. WJ was next. woohoo.! see.? both lasallians leii. pro not.?! whoots`
right. on e way back saw JH and gang. so noisy.! wahahaha. yayy. but my stupid laopo never go laa. dumb. hrmph. LOL. right. gtg lerr. tata`
<3 basketball

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 8:23 PM

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Tuesday, June 28, 2005

LOL. i tio e math clinic thingy. hahaha. fer ppl hu's percentage fer math is below 60%. i got half of tt la. so obviously i'm goin. LOL.
right. so yeaa. FD todae was super funny. hahah. at least didn't make any mistake. kena scolded fer one thing. havin a lollipop in my mouth. ((x laopo gif de ma. LOL. after lunch eat as dessert. hahaha. yeaa. then went play bball. wily sux.! so xtra. later call ppl HOOT him arrr. idiot. yaa. then todae i super pro nehh. all chop till nice nice. hahaha. tml oso got tornament. i'm goin to watch KSS vs JSS i think. yeaa. pray hard ppl. play hard. yea mann.! weee.
bball rocks.!
<3

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 8:22 PM

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Monday, June 27, 2005

it's been a long time since i enjoyed a great game of bball. yeaa man. i got to know 4 ppl just cos of a game todae. hahaha. one called zack, one called feng and the gii na shaun. haha. and last but not least nigel's new girl jasmise.! rare species mann. hahaha. lucky nigell.

yarr. i supposed to publicise my lao po on my blog. LOL. mr lee zheng xuan. or shld it be miss.? mmmm. haiya. both lee no difference. yaaa. SHE very good wor. everytime buy lollipop fer me de. of cos. cos i'm HER laogong. yarr. and SHE helped me photostat math hmwork fer me copy. haha. no need money leii.! yew sae good anot.? loll. but my this laopo very tomboy one. always play soccer and hang out with other MEN. so disappointing. hahaha..

right. i'm lazy to do anymore blogging. so ya. tt's all folks.!
<3

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 8:21 PM

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Sunday, June 26, 2005

right. ytd went to JE do homework with mr ahh and LY. yarr. then supposed to write poem fer Lit assignment. yarr. then since he busy decorating my book i wrote e poem fer him lor. se i'm so nice. genius sumore. here it is:

why do you all say
it's a must for school.
dragging my feet eeveryday
it makes me look like a fool

it's not a holiday
this is sad..
i must say
school is not a fad.

why do you torture us
with tons of homework?
is it a must?
this is so absurd.

this stinks.
i hate this life.
i hope school would be extinct
and never be alive.

tada.! see.? i'm a genius. hahaa. then went to arcade to have fun lor. waste alot of $$ but i had fun so hu cares.? yeaa. 1st time playing para para and i thought i didn't fare tt badly fer a 1st timer. lolss. hahaha. and my time crisis shooting skill becum slacxk lerr. ahhh. right. here is my poem:

looking out my window
i see the tress blowing in the breeze
looking out my window
the world seemed to come to a freeze.

lying on my bed
darkness sets in
everything seemed to fade
while i force a grin

i'm still awake
i am.
off to the kitchen
to get some jam

i sit at the table
feeling hungry
i though:what is this world cuming to?
i feel angry.

jealousy,hatred,hypocrisy and "fun"
this is all so silly.!
with nowhere to run
i feel giddy.

oh gosh!
all this is making me shudder.
i feel tired.
off i go again into deep slumber.


so how.? genius anot.? lolss. hahaha.
<3

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 11:08 AM

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Shao Nian 少年
光: 你又想起某个夏天 热闹海岸线 曹: 记忆中的那个少年 骄傲的宣言
光: 伸出双手就能拥抱全世界 曹: 相信所有的梦想一定会实现
光: 一切看起来都不会太遥远
合: 转眼之间过几年
曹: 轻浮的语言都已慢慢沈淀 光: 即使难免会变得更加洗炼
合: 我们不曾妥协

光: 那是我们都回不去的从前 曹: 幸好还可以坚持当时的信念
光: 世界尝试改变
合: 当初的那个少年
曹: 那是我们都回不去的从前 光: 当你站在那个夏天的海岸线 曹: 我们还是心里面
合: 那个偏执的少年

曹: 你又想起某个夏天 热闹海岸线 光: 记忆中的那个少年 骄傲的宣言
曹: 伸出双手就能拥抱全世界 光: 相信所有的梦想一定会实现
合: 我们不曾妥协


曹: 那是我们都回不去的从前 光: 幸好还可以坚持当时的信念
曹: 世界尝试改变
合: 当初的那个少年
光: 那是我们都回不去的从前 曹: 当你站在那个夏天的海岸线
光: 我们还是心里面
合: 那个偏执的少年

合: 那是我们都回不去的从前 幸好还可以坚持当时的信念 世界尝试改变 当初的那个少年 那是我们都回不去的从前 当你站在那个夏天的海岸线 我们还是心里面 那个偏执的少年


love this song. rocks! <3

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 10:55 AM

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Friday, June 24, 2005

ahhh. i thought it was thurs todae and agreed to go out with ly and mr. ahh. i have church lor. in e end we're meeting at 11am. lols. after studying go church fer srv. yeaa.
todae early in e morn 7.30am went ta sch fer choir. then mr liew came and saw tt attendance sucked. and he like called off e whole thing and he left and asked us to go home. then we sit down there rot fer 2 hrs b4 mdm faridah came and dismissed us. oh what the man.! then me n YJ went to mini mart to slack and grabbed a bite.
right. so now cchel is at my place. yar. she nothing to do bo liao so dropped by lorr. hahaha. gtg entertain her now. tata`

<3

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 2:01 PM

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Thursday, June 23, 2005

weeee. i'm tonned and tired. just came back. was out with joanne, jun jia,julian, hor fu and jianxun. peeps tt i've not contacted fer lke 2yrs 1/2 ler. pri sch roxx.! ((: we were at CCK stadium having a great game of badminton. ya man. i'm improving lerr. hahaha. all e boys still e same de. onli noe how to bully girls. 2 years still haven change. haii. ((x
then went to macs saw 'mr ahh'. dunno his name la. my sch one. lol. kena street evan. hahaha. poor thing.
right. then went kor hse e playground there play soccer and swings.! stare at e kids make them scared scared then run away let us play. then e thing like wnana collapse lydat.haha. i had a great time basically. yay. hope all of us can continue be frens till old old and turn up fer each other wedding. hahaha. ((x

<3

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 8:19 PM

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Wednesday, June 22, 2005

hey peeps. i'm back with more blog entries. hahaha.

right. ignyte youth conference just ended few days ago and everyone was just so set on fire fer God now. hahahaha. hooray fer IGNYTE.! bro kah fei got 2 of my ppl saved oso. yay. hooray fer bro kah fei.! LOL. right. now i'm not gonna look back no more. since God gave me eyes in front i should look forward and not back. yep. hooray for God.!

right. smsing dan now and in school havin IT training. obviously i'm slacking and playing with blog and freindster during lesson. ohhh. naughty girl.

yep. bel was having hard times in church past few days. yaa. she got all of us emotional too. and all starting sobbing. awww. but well. tt's wad friends are for right.? cheer up bel.! ((: yay. stew family rocks. chelsea roks. bel rocks. i rock.! hahaha. (x

weeEe. teacher is still blabbering away. gives me time to end all this. hahahah. bought a bottle of wine feer dad ya know.? now i'm broke. but hu ask him be my awesome dad.? hahaha. God did. ((x and i'm thankful fer him.

p.s daniel yew better remeber my prezzie. bon voyage. (:

<3 hannah.` ((:

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 9:09 AM

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Monday, June 06, 2005

As children bring their broken toys with tears for us to mend
I brought my broken hopes to God cos he was my friend.
But instead of leaving him in peace to work alone
I hung around and tried to help with ways that were my own.
At last I snatched them back again and cried, “how can you be so slow.?”. “My child”, he said, “what could I do.? You never did let go.

-pastor poh preached this some time ago. i just remembered it as i was doin my t.a.w.g. yes there have been dreams and hopes that have been dashed. ppl feel shattered. i feel shattered. but trust in e Lord. he promises a future that blesses and not harm. (:


hannah`

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 8:43 PM

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sec 2 camp sux sux sux.

we paid $80 to go to Kluang to suffer and donate blood(to e mosquitoes). and it wasn't 'ulu' there.i had alot of 'friends' -- all e different kind of bugs and houseflies. toilet sux. all e walls each had like 100+ bugs on em. e water used to bathe and brush teeth were yellow in colour,due to e unwashed pipes. 2 nights i slept less than 8 hrs all together. my face nose neck hands legs all sunburnt. i didn't even dare to bathe lor.i just took a bottle of water and poured it on my head. sumore i just finished trekking like dunno how many metres up a stupid super rocky mountain. e mountian was so roky that it was full of rocks.! lols. we had to go on fours to climb la. after getting 400m up e track, we saw ;welcome to gnung lambak mountian. -- we were onli at e base.! omgg. by tt time i was already sweating like mad. prespiration can drip onto e grd like rain and my shirt and pants were soaked thru. and we were onli at e base.! but oh well. tt was e best activity liao lor. kinda fun la. really tiring and scary. so many pits. landslides happened too. chee how almost lost his life. lols.

right. so in e hot n hot n hot tent, i couldn't fall asleep.! duhss. we agreed on e positions. all of e slept like logs and stretched out their legs and hands like noone's business. worse was. sum of em saw e 'situation' our friends were in and guess what,they just went back to sleep with a yawn and not even shift their body.! how am i suppposed to sleep like tt.?! pissed off lor.

camp fire. supposed to be e best part in e end i thought e NPCC from kss could have done a better job lor. and e peer leaders would have also done a better job warming up e atmosphere. pure bullshit. ahhhh.

food.! it was kinda nice. except tt e vegs for lunch and dinner exactly e same thing. like leftover lydat. pathetic.! and we were spending more time on fanning e flies away than eating la. e drinks was also pathetic. okie. practically everything was pathetic at tt place la. e drink was just sweet corn syrup with cold water colouring. ahhh. milo was just abit of powder with lots of sugar. omg. try having tt.

e sun. ahhh. onli 3 hours under e sun and i'm already sunburnt. can yew now tell e heat.? omg. ouch. i look like a clown with those red cheeks. ahhh. crap.

i'm definitely glad tt i'm back and using clean clear water. sleeping on comfy beds without e flies to disturb me. comfort at last. good food. i gorged myelf with food during dinner. hahaha. well. i finally noe how to appreciate wad i have now. enjoy.! (:

hannah`

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 7:55 PM

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Wednesday, May 25, 2005

waaa. dancing all four parts really kills man. stupid teacher ask me do all four parts. do until i run here run there thruout e whole song. oh man. i'm super dead now. ahhhh. 10th year aniiversary cumin liaoo ma.

haii. right. sundae went SJ bdae then after tt go meet TW. someone i practically never seen. LOLS. so weird feeling. hahaha. kinda fun lar. arcades and stuff.

right. me and him over. all over. i hate it. ah mann. my eyes are just gonna shut anytime. i feel dead.

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 8:14 PM

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Sunday, May 22, 2005

waa. long time never post lerr. long long timee. hahaha

mmmm. now preparing and dressing up fer brother terence's wedding ceremony. waaa. dressing up ish fun.! ahhh. feel like taking shots of myself. hahah. bhb..

well. exams are over ler. math failed again. haii. lost to daniel.! hahaha. great job dan. (: and all e teachers mark till super strict. all my a1s and a2s all fly away lerr. hai. sho disappointed.

well now i'm all alone at home with nothing to do with no one to chat with. all still sleeping ar.! it's only 8.30. what can yew expect right.? hahaha. parents went fer 8.30 srv sho i had to wake up just as earlyy. mannn.

i wanna change my blog skin n stuff leii. but i'm sho impateint. lalalala.

oh well. dun wan tok so much lerr. muahaha.

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 9:01 AM

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Saturday, March 26, 2005

ok. a reply to ur post.

yes. you were naive. you still are anywae. i don't take back my words. you are still childish. WITH not = pat tor. you are still a hypo. 'i don't wanna come to church again. you won't be seeing me onli maybe once per mth.' fine. i accepted that. why are you still here anywae? and ignoring everyone and anyone who passes yopu by. and sho what do you call tt kinda action? and fer your own sake. i don't give a damn hu yew are hanging out with or who e heck yew share chocolates with. i went in and out e toilet not cos of whatever but cos i needed e toilet. so don't cum by thinking of ur own dstupid fantasy stoires.
and yes, you are not worth my smses. i just wanted to do so cos i felt my hands were itchy. who can possibly wanna waste smses on you?
you still got me wrong. sit not = relationship with. so get ur bloody facts right mr. you are just sumone who does your own stuff without thinking of pppl. and you just think and shoot ur facts or maybe not facts at sumone who's willing to listen. in this case, not me. so stop shooting ur so-called-facts aat ppl.
and fer ur info. i don't have cow sense. i have common sense. perhaps it's you who needs sum servere sense.

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 12:22 PM

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Sunday, March 20, 2005

weEe. ytd had worship Xperience in church. cool man. all of us went high. haha. well then. i got home and mei told me i recieved a package. weEe. it was from JC! it's been about one week ler. and it onli came ytd. phew~ anywae. it was this cute toy dog and a few nicely written cards. hahs. very happi. mhmm. so in return i'll be giving him stuff lar. duhs. =) anywae.

i'm pretty bored todae. tml i'll be back in sch and guess wad? sitting fer Math common test. i'm sure to fail. oh man. anywaes. errr. tt's bout all. buais ya'll!

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 10:19 AM

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Monday, March 14, 2005

many things have been goin wrong. hypocrites behind me back. kenny's really ill. tachers yelling at me. jian chuan's gonna go fer holiday fer e whole week. i'm gonna be so bored. gosh.

anywae. my muscles are aching! ytd had amazing race held by church. really amazing. from west coast complete 5 stations gave us clue go clementi. e 1st 189 bus was so packed by our youths my grp was held back. after tt went there and collected 100kg of newspapers from block 324 fer CCSS. and oso part of e game. my hands and legs were ahing. running to each level BY STAIRS then run down dump e papers there and run again. oh my. then gave us detour go to eithr Ghim Moh or HOlland V. 1st. we went ta ghim moh hawker 1st. there we had to eat fried ants flew in from colombia and 2 ice kahcang in 2 mins(5 ppl). brain freeze! then ran ran ran to holland v. RAN! recorded 'god loves you' in 5 diff langs other than eng, CL and ML. then report at BK to road marshals. after tt completed flew back to church. 7th team. oh man! but did great. after tt went fer feast with ZhiHe, andrew and chel. chilli! haha. most enjoyable dinner. =)

so todae. i was pissed. dun feel like talkin bout it.

p.s cell2-2a, pls pray fer kenny, e FTV, my fren.running a feverof 40.5 and throat infection. thankss.

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 8:38 PM

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Sunday, February 20, 2005

oh my. time really flies. happy birthdae to me indeed. e dae i cried most. tears not of joy alright. valentines dae too. hai. this yr hasn't been goin pretty well fer me. i'm just so stressed up now. ahhhhh. soooner or later i'm gonna go mad. watch out.
later in e afternoon goin to church fer E.D.G.E concert. serving as SP fer both time slots. haiii. tired. then ytd kenny n darren suddenly appeared at trinity's doorstep and turned up fer service. haha. after service went ta macs with kor n chel. haaaa. he was so scandalous! ahhhh! recording stuff and takin stupid photos. ahhhh. haa. i had fun. it's been quite sum time since i laughed tt much actuyally. haiii.

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 10:34 AM

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Thursday, February 10, 2005

mmm. todae's andre didi bdae. oso 2nd dae of CNY! mmmmm. but this yr like no festive mood lei. i no mood celebrate lor. haiii. anywae. it's likee 3 more days to my bdae and i'm like down with ulcers n fever. gosh. i can't eat anything lor. i'm so hungry now! ahhhhh. sobs sobs.. really painful man. cannot ta han. yay . tml got choir. after tt gonna play bball with darren n shun jie dey all. yipee!

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 4:28 PM

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Friday, February 04, 2005

see la. this blog is like dying. hai. but hey! todae was great man. i'm so happi. priase e lord! todae wanted go to KL hse to wait fer LY end ELDDS. then after tt i went out later saw shun jie with 2 guys. i tot beng lai de lei. so i went ta chcek it out. n turned out they were salting! yea. so we found a place settle down. then e 2 guys age 19+ lydat with my help 'salted' kenny, shun jie, and darren. then hey! 2 of em accepted christ. i'm gonna be their SP. yea man! woooo! hahs. i'm so glad. wahahaha.

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 8:35 PM

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Sunday, January 30, 2005

weEeee. tough week in sch. kena scolded alot of times. hahaha. then my mei mum n ither mei all sick. left mi n bro. haii. everybody sick liao sia. i'm havin a really really bad throat n flu. yepp. haiss.
hmmmm. ytd just got news from jun jie. the bb n gb from kss cumin fer youth camp n youth concert! which is like my dream cum true lor! i was hoping to get alot of em saved la. if they go fer youth camp rite. omgggg. i can't imagine wad'll happen! ahhhhhh! thank God! woohoo!
now wad else. my hp finally back ta life. clement cannot suan me liao. wahahaha. and oh. i'm into this testimonials frenzy. hahahah .so ppl. pls pls pls. drop me a testi!
p.s thanks sh kor fer being a man of ur word. hahahahah! :))

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 11:47 AM

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Friday, January 21, 2005

finally camn update my blog. yay. i commissioned sp le. sp interview was scary! hai. but thank GOd he was with me. yea man. oh gosh. sch was hectic. with all e choir things n stuff. SYF cumin! so sat i haf ta go back sumore! will miss alot of cell stuff. oh man. haiii. tired. dad woke me up so early todae. sumore i watched AMI 4 ytd slept late leii. hai.
'm sick! kenny spread to me de. haii. tso tired! n my dad haven even give my sim card to hello yet lor. ahhhhh. anoher whole boring week without my hp. ahhhhh!

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 9:10 AM

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finally camn update my blog. yay. i commissioned sp le. sp interview was scary! hai. but thank GOd he was with me. yea man. oh gosh. sch was hectic. with all e choir things n stuff. SYF cumin! so sat i haf ta go back sumore! will miss alot of cell stuff. oh man. haiii. tired. dad woke me up so early todae. sumore i watched AMI 4 ytd slept late leii. hai.
'm sick! kenny spread to me de. haii. tso tired! n my dad haven even give my sim card to hello yet lor. ahhhhh. anoher whole boring week without my hp. ahhhhh!

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 9:10 AM

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finally camn update my blog. yay. i commissioned sp le. sp interview was scary! hai. but thank GOd he was with me. yea man. oh gosh. sch was hectic. with all e choir things n stuff. SYF cumin! so sat i haf ta go back sumore! will miss alot of cell stuff. oh man. haiii. tired. dad woke me up so early todae. sumore i watched AMI 4 ytd slept late leii. hai.
'm sick! kenny spread to me de. haii. tso tired! n my dad haven even give my sim card to hello yet lor. ahhhhh. anoher whole boring week without my hp. ahhhhh!

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 9:10 AM

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Sunday, January 16, 2005

waaaa! i can finally blog. even jared says my blog is dying.. is it? oh well. here goes. the week was hectic man. yeaaaa. choir sang in front of whole sch lor. lame sia. i'd rather sing sum ncie song than the national anthem. hahaha. then preparing sumone's bdae present though it's like in nov? lolssss. guess wad it is? haaaaa. forget it man. then past few days were with kenn n gang. and er er er. sumthing happened. lols. nnot with me la. but er er er. hahaha. so hysterical. she is so bhb. oh my. i'm tired! dad as usual woke me up at 8am fer no reason. haaaa. ytd was chatting with qing rong over e phone fer like so freaking long. from 9 plus to 12 plus. haha. was like whispering all e way. farni sia. heeeee. he's kinda lame though. with all e uhs n e ahs. lolsssss.
oh man. i'm alone at home. sian man. what to do?! 2 hrs. n my SIM card is still blocked! mum does'nt wan go change it. urgh. sumone save me man. i'm dying!

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 10:24 AM

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Sunday, January 09, 2005

okie la. i'm alone at home now with nth else ta do. so i'm blogging! haha. sch obviously was tiring laaa. ytd had choir. e song so chim. sumore jeremy was beside me singing so loudly.. i couldn't even hear my part and started following. ahhhh. tough man. chior is so much more tough than nball. -sobs-
wanted ta go macs ytd with jean mei n clement kor one. then called my mom she ask me go home.. ahhhhh. so saddd. lols. nvm. n hey! i'm like so happy. i finally got news of andre after like so many months? yeaaa. n i'm really glad God has answered my prayer to change him la. i'm really happy. yeaaa. and dun noe why ppl these few days says i've changed. lol. have i? no wad.. er er er. wadeva. lemme noe okie? dun keep me in e dark. hahs. hai. sway sia. tt moron wants e chpir ta sing fer morning assembly everydae ya noe?! and during lower sec assembly e sec 2's will have ta sing sch song alone! ahhhhh. and tt's lik me? oh man. hope it rains everydae. then dun need stand in front of sch. haha.

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 10:29 AM

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Friday, January 07, 2005

ahhhh. now then haf time ta blog. gonna be short one i guess. i'm like so busy lor. caught up with PL things n stuff like tt. sch hours are like so long. yea. then after tt sian sian walk around in sch looking fer sec 1s to bully. haha. yeaaa. todae alomost spoil e locker. haha. my eyes are closing fer ur info. yeaaa. can't see clearly. haha. tired i guess. tml still have choir. wa piang. okie. and errr. fer all my kor rite. i'm feeling better. can tell e grandfather story liao. yeaaa. like u all said. i should'nt keep it inside rite? oh well. school sucks. sec 2 like sucks. buias.

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 8:47 PM

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Monday, January 03, 2005

waaa.todae sec 1 orientation. sian. see e sec 2 upstairs happy happy then i was thinking i shld be one of them then hai. sian. 1st level. haish. so not fairrr. urgh. then i was with sec 1 class all e time lor. 1B. wa sian. i tell yew. this batch ar. worse than my batch. not one handsum or chio one. hai. disapointed. hahaaaa. wadeva. i'm busy doin research. see i'm so guai. lols. okiee. buais

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 8:36 PM

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Sunday, January 02, 2005

hahahahah. happy new year! yea yeaaa. start from 31st la k? hahaha. okieee.
so ya, went fer communion with family, then with cell. yea. after tt 6+ went to serene have dinner and party upstairs lorrr. haaaa. we had macs, photo-taking, and just got mad there. then me, chel, joan, and elo wanted go Cloronation buy hair spray. we walk in the noe! walk walk walk walk in e end all e shop not open, qi si ren lei! then went back lo. went to the 'supermarket' upsairs at macs there buy chocs fer everyone. the hersheys kisses oneee. yea. then arr. got bad gerls u noe! hahaha. chel, joan nat n elo bought a bar of choc woith alcohol one leiii. haaaa. then after tt they were like soo high. weEee. then we stayed till like 8+ b4 goin back to prepare fer watchnight! waaaa. so chaotic lei. like e whole passion! min crowded at playground spraying hair running ard and stuff. haaaa. my hair was blue n orange! weEeee. so after tt P. darrick asked us go up to auditorium get seated at altars. waaaa. it was so cramped! sit in front sumore. the whole like 4 hrs in an awkward position. haaaa. i was never so happy to happy stand up. lols. then so we were getting mad n high up there in front with all e yelling. yea man! ONE WAY! so cool.. haaaa. service ended with countdown laaa. duhhss!! =P then me chel and chris started getting mad with weird ideas. i started calling ppl up and on the count of 1.2.3 the 3 of us will shout ino e reciever. very fun noe! but could'nt really hear wad the other person was saying. it was soooooo noisy! yeaaa. called Ren kai and SH, tried calling yang zhi oso.then he sae zzz le. haaaa. then i call JH hse his mummy saae not in. then i call RK again ask him if JQ n JH there not. then again we all down there yelling ahppy new year. it was so fun! i was just so high. i even called nicol ok. lols. yea i just practically forgot everything lor! hahaha. then went home. fall on my bed and ZzZ leee. i lost my voice and was so tired! sumore my dad arr. sumthing wrong in his head. the next dae wake me up at 8.30 lor! n i slept at 2 okie! so u can imagine how tired i wasss. haaa. then ytd went ta church. weEee. fun fun fun! chapel changed liao! so punk! now got the smoke thing and like disco lights. really like disco man! woohooo! the drums were oso like put up on platform. yeaaa. it was just so cool. so we were still yelling our lungs out! yaaa. and my singing as terrible tt night. my voice like gone liao. haaa. so went ah yi hse. again. wahaha. then slept at 11+12 while crapping with mei mei lor. then fall asleep halfway kinnon called! waaa. so fed up. then todae my dad mad again. awke me up at 8. mad! waaaa. tml how to go sch?! shit ar. i very tired nehh. opps. this postt toooooo long le. wonder who'll reda. oh wel.. peace!

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 10:25 AM

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Thursday, December 30, 2004

waaa. todae went to sch lorr. raining how to train? stupee lor. then after tt join PL lo. wa i tell u arr. we are gonna be so busy next year. sec 1 orientation all in our hands lei! stress arrr.

and i tell u ar! i'm so fed up! 2F next yr remain 1st level lei! this is so not fair lo! in e middle of all e sec 1s getting messed up with their noise. how to study?! and 1H 2nd level! how can be?! i'm jsut super fed up. it's totally not fair. we work so hard just to get to sec 2 and go up 2nd level be 'above e rest' then they deprive us of tt. it's so not fair. stupid moron leee. ahhh!

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 8:33 PM

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Wednesday, December 29, 2004

waaaa.todae was such a sian dae lorr. didi finish his work damn early todae. he switched on e com, borught jia hao our neighbour here and started trying to download maplestory, and duh, it was a failureee. i was so fed up i yelled at them asking them to get out of e hse and even called mum.. oh, i'm so bad.
hahaaa. new skin liao leiii. haaa. i wan black one, and i still can't hear the song! then orbi orh. JH kor kena banned from com. haha. huo gai. budden haiya, now nobody help me with e song liaoooo. ahhhh. but oh welll. peace outssss.

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 5:06 PM

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Tuesday, December 28, 2004

yep yep. now MVP valentine showing on channel U again. ahhhh. brings me back to e pri sch days man. then i flipped thru my diary then see see hink think. hai. then just realised tt for e past 1 whole year and half i haven even got HIM off my head at all! and tt show just makes me turn on e water tapss. the situation was so similarr. hai. really want to get back to those times lorr. but well. he has moved on. and i guess i should do e same.. gosh. i'm like gonna publicise this? haiya. not as if there's someone who does'nt noe bout this. i mean. practically everyone in DLSS knew lorr. oh goshhh. i oso stopped writing my diary liao lor. all the things inside all bout him one. one whole book ok! then since then no one had made my able to write liao lor. so hai. shld'nt think too much..

then tt dae me li ying were talking bout dream guys. dunno for wad reason. now me n desiree oso lydat. hahas. so my standard very high lor. listen man.
-my dream guy-

1. must play bball.
2. tall (175 ^)
3. tan.
4. lanky
5. cute? hahs.
6. FUNNY!
7. mad + mature (like me)
8. able to make me laugh n cry
9. loves me la.. duH!
10. cares fer ppl ard him eg frens.

see? sounds like HIM rite? yep yep. hehass. i'm still looking fer a new skiN!

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 2:45 PM

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Sunday, December 26, 2004

ahhhh. sick of this dark skin leee. makes me look so depressed. hahas. now at uncle keen's hse. just came up from a swim. then we went earlier waddd. then onli got me n my sister down there swim swim swim. we were waiting for the other swimmers so can continue with trainin' wif uncle keen. good rite? haf an uncle as my coach. yep yep. then b4 tt there were these 2 gerls laaaa. they think we very lousy swimmers. we swam 2 laps riteee. then they were walking here n there laaaa. then they were like 'eeee. they onli swim until here onli arrr', when fact was we'd already completed 2 lapsss. haaaa. silly bunch of girls. then later we were practicing or flips laaa. they were like shock diao. hahaaa. training was terrible! ahhhh. then after tt was supposed to play table tennis. then the stupid guard sae haf ta wear shoess. haiyaa. then i sian diao cum up do bloggg. hahas. well tt shld be ittt. buaisss. can't wait fer watchnight! =P

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 4:47 PM

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Friday, December 24, 2004

ahhhhh! i hate joanne chan! bcos of her song i cried! eeee. i just miss em too much. DLSS ppl! i miss yew guys alot. just ta let u guys noe u mean alot to me! yeaaa. hope can turn back time ya noe. then we'll be p6s forever.. hai. i really hope we'll still be friends forever. never forget me ya? hai.. hai hai hai!!

/- Graduation. Friends forveer.-/

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real cool
Stay at home talking on the telephone with me
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

- As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can we ever find a job that won't interfere with a tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

La, la, la, la…Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la…
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly


-tt's dedicated to all u DLSS ppl. it's already been a year now. but i want u guys to noe that u were e ppl who made a diff in my life. i really appreciate all of u. each n everyone of u. i promise i'll never forget anyone of u. i hope to see u guys again.
okie. i'm like crying while writing this post? ahhhh. listening to e music thinking bout everything, seems as if i'll never get to see them again. and things would never be h0w it would be like the year b4. i really miss those timess. they were really e best times of my life.
'as we go on, we remember, all e times we had together. and as our lives change, come whatever, we will still be friends forever.' promise? hai. my eyes are gonna be so swollen tonight. hai. i miss yew ppL!!!! ='(

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 7:37 PM

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Wednesday, December 22, 2004

sheesh. ytd went to my autns hse fer tt so called 'dinner'. then was looking at the clock like e whole time wondering what the others might be doin. very xin ku rite? hai. yep yep. keep thinking tt it was 23rd ytd. then keeping rushing out my xmas cards and sent them ytd i think. hai. too early le la. nvm nvm. it's da thought tt counts..haha. then ytd went fer SALTing in orhcard road! Wisma there. trying to bring ppl to christ. wa seh. scary ok. expect us go ta strangers and ask themm. lol. yeaaaa. so it was scary la. then cannot approach guys sumore. the gerls there all like very very.. er. er. er. yeaaa. then we ask e gerls, 'xcuse me can i take up sum of ur time?' they sae NO then walk away. hostile man! hahaa. then walk round wu suo shi shi.. hehheee. merry xmas to everybodyyy. anywaeee. does anyone noe where to buy the keychain tt u hang on ur hp then when like u call or recieve an sms then e keychain lights up? my gan di wants larrr. boi lei.. funny rite? haaa. kinnon chan.. lols. inform me ya? tks!

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 2:40 PM

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Sunday, December 19, 2004

this sucks. everything sucks. my parents wun let me turn up fer camp echo. good enuf. they even scold me fer crying n stuff. is it even wrong to get angry?! they dun even understand how much tt means to me. how much it means to have God's touch on my life. and God asks me to give up my dreams to pursue him. now i wanna pursue him he wun ven let me and makes me turn up for sum dinner i don't even dream of! is it even fair to me?! i crty also wrong. keep quiet also wrong. want to love God also wrong. ahhhh! i was practically crying my lungs out the whole damn night. with already a bad throat and sick feeling in my body i haf to carry on. what is this lor! ahhhh! -sobs-

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 1:36 PM

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Friday, December 17, 2004

ahhh. so bored lor. ok lar. these few days hanging out in church. SP course la. posters n stuff. actually got alot of things to sae de. budden not fang bian actually. those ppl hu noe shld noe wad i'm toking bout bah. yeaaa. so my life is just sian. after camp there's nothing else happening liao. yeaaa. n hey! my dad's back from his business trip! hooray! he just stepped in to the hse. waaahah. alright. have ta go entertain him now. haaaa. signing off.-

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 8:55 PM

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Sunday, December 12, 2004

hai. todae went ta serene centre macs there ta do grp project fer cell. yaa. so we were like doin n discussing n stuff like tt la. me,jean,zhihe,juztin,thadues, shamus,julian,andrew,david and blah blah. then dunno we started having disagrrements n stuff, no very major la. cos basically onli me jean n zhihe was doin lor. then after tt ppl started gettiong pissed lor. n we were supposeed to do it as a group lor! hai. but i think everythings ok le la. tml meeting them again. hope can complete it in time!

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 3:12 PM

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Friday, December 10, 2004

my life is changed. the love of God has ministered to me. i dun care what other's might say but i'm giving it all for God. yes. i want to bring lives to God. i want to glorify his name. i noe He will be with me.
i'm tired. continue tml. hahs
//-I love Jesus!-//

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 8:55 PM

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Sunday, December 05, 2004

ahhhh. today's sunday liao. packed my luggage prepare fer camp tml! yay. goin M'sia. rompin wor. not bad sia. lols. 5 days 4 nights. waaa. scared not enuf clothes lei. not bad sia. got our own bed in hotel ar. pro man. lols. wa sian lor. ytd my parents made me skip youth service just to catch a stupid crappy play. 'snow white n da seven dwarfs'. my mom made it sound so grand i no choice went la. just to experience lor. in the end i turn up all the kiddies from 2-6 i guess. no one was like my age lor. i was looking around the 'auditorium' n saw either youngsters or oldies. lols. my dad even said it was bullshit. pardon me man. n wad's more it cost $25! just fer sum singing lalala blah blah.. omg. regretted man. P Darick was preaching sumore. hai. nvm lor. todae now along at home packing my stuff. later meet parents at lot 1 fer lunch then go GM hse play bball again. as usual. lols. ahh! then ytd went fer cell rite, bro terence said poster looked small. way too small. and cum to think of it. the design was really pathetic! lols. great balls of fire man. so now me jean zhi he n andrew have ta do it alll over again. ahhhH! why us? cos we're leaders tt's y. lols. no fair. hahs. lame lame lame.

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 10:31 AM

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Friday, December 03, 2004

my father sooooo nice. he bo liao send me email. but was really nice lar.
Hi Hannah

well I had some time in my hand so I thought why not sent a mail to my loved Girl.
its been 13 years and now you are growing up fast.I must say that for the past 13 years
you have been a good girl and that you have the responsibilies of what you do.
both mummy and I am glad that you are also helping out both may May & Didi in their works.
and hope that you can continue to do so.

Papa have a couple of thing to say to you thru this mail and its is with love that I am saying this to you.

I hope the following point form will help.( need you to work on them. )
to help around at home ( house works )
be responsible to pack your bed even on school going days.at least papa don't need to scream at all of you sometime.
be responsible in your finance ( plan well for whatever money you may have so that you have spare cash to do whatever you need sometime.)
continue to be that good girl for both mami and me
the reason why most of the time that papa is home and make you all do house works is so that 1 day we don't have aunty nic we are can chip in to make our home better.

just imaging that aunty nic have to do so much to served all 6 of us ( plenty to do right ??? )
and your eyes can see that whenever papa is home I am also helping to wash or cook

and papa also wants you to know that you are loved and that I am proud of you and also wants to open that channel of communication that you me and mummy can enjoyed together.
and that's is the reason why I am sending you this mail.

you can always feel free to sent me any concern or whatever you want papa to know or approved.so far I hope you are aware that your father me is fare enough to all of you RIGHT
so let the ball rolled




With LOVE from your FATHER

hahs. see. that was my dad. nice ar.. yar. so now joanne's at my hse lor. she oso bo liao wad. then saw soon hwee, james, tze yang they all. they had band lar. yar. sian lor. got thing to add then add later. lols.

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 1:51 PM

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Thursday, December 02, 2004

weEe! i promised dudes to blog todae. hooray! todae was like so cool! yaa. went ta church early in the morning with mum cos had to meet jean,andrew n zhiHe to do sm poster thingy. the guys were like sooooo late. hahs. so we gerls were waiting n waiting. lols. ok la. couldn't cum up with ideas for lke 3 hrs lor. the 'inspiration' came after lunch. hahs. i was practically laughing my head off the whole time! noe why? *great balls of fire* go guess. hahahahah! nvm. still very high. lols. so so farni. never laughed so highly in like so long. ya. so i'm of cos very happpy la. memorable dae. lols. really happy la. hahs.
and ytd excitement, taufik! weEe. but starting to like Sly liao lor. heee. he is sooooo cute. yelling my lungs off lor. my dad was goin 'Taufu Batisai'. lols. i'm just really happy la. thanks to the 3 other ppl who really made my dae. wun bish them one. lols. yay.. happy happy happy. oppps. too high. =PpP

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 8:03 PM

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Tuesday, November 30, 2004

awww. both didi n meimei went fer church camp. wun be back till friday. gosh. i never knew it would be so boring. hai. have ta sleep alone again. hai. adding on to my collection. i wan hair spray. coloured ones.. weeEe.tml goin out with clement kor, li ying, joanne n clement's 2 other nu-ers he calls.. lols. yea. looking forward man. so bored at home. whole day stare at the com. no one online de. eeee. so ya. mum hasn't guven me my allowance! and tml i'm gonna buy x'mas presnts for the peeps. yea. treasured ones. lols. anyone can help mi find zhang dong liang's 'dang ni gu dan ni hui xiang qi shui' the lyrics? trying to find. lol.

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 7:31 PM

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hahss. thought of a new christmas wishlist le. lols.
1. zhang dong liang cd
2. new pair of shoes
3. still that black + pink wallet
4. handphone lor. possible ma?
5. digital camera
6. new sling bag. black?
7. clothes lor.
8. new look fer my room
9. hope ta get back together with my pri sch frens.
10. white christmas
11. for everyone ta be happy.
12. world peace! lols

tt's it. hahs.

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 3:28 PM

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Monday, November 29, 2004

finally! i'm a genius man. pure genius. lols. nvm.. i fixed my own com! now all 3 com can use msgr le! weEe!
yay. so todae i went the stadium with mom bro and sis lar. play badminton. lol. still i sae. my mom's the pro. but i improved le!
yaa. then recently alot of deaths lor. hai. 1st andrew's grandpa. now jh g grandma i think. yaa. kinda sad though. hai. thought of my gm. yea. but oh well. ppl sure haf ta leave the human world one of these days rite. but i'm sure we'll all got a heaven n enjoy eternal life. yea. hahs. lols. crap. but true though! eeee. can anyone like grant my christmas wishes? lols. please! hahs.

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 8:28 PM

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Saturday, November 27, 2004

woohoo! just came back from church. lols. hmmm. dunno y. but after i let it go. i feel as if i've got this biggest burden off my back! yaa. so peeps. thanks for cheering me on. suaning me too. -.- hahs. yaaa. i xiang tong le. follow sh. hahs..
anywae.. gonna make my christmas wishes here. hahs.peeps who read my blog must drop me presnt de ar..
1. new funky pink + black wallet
2. new handphone?
3. clothes?
4. yaaa. new bag! woohoo!
5. hair dye. lols.

and oh!
6. world peace! lols. =PpP
ok no more le. see i'm such a simple person. not asking for much. lolS! kk peeps. signing off!

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 8:23 PM

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Thursday, November 25, 2004

yaa. todae not v nice la. the house was like a total mess with josh esther n grace running round. lols. dunno y i posted this on b4 budden nv showed. lols. anywae. todae went ta sch at 11.00 am to meet YZ kor take booklist. made me wait till 11.40 b4 he came along.! ahhh! hahs. oh well. nvm. yaa. i'm just washing my handss off everything lor. dun wanna bother liao. yeps.
and oh! my com got prob! the one with msn msgr. ahhhhh! gonna miss u guys! lols.
-praying fer u andrew. god bless-

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 3:38 PM

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Wednesday, November 24, 2004

well. i decided le. i will leave everything to God and well, fate bah. yaaa. after all ir eally can't do anything if she doesn't wanna believe me.
ya. anywae. todae PSLE results released. mi, jo, geovenn sharidan went back DLSS b xtra. lol. yaa. so we were like so disappointed lo. standard dropped alot lo. ya. then my p6 frens ar. even worse. disappoint me like siao. i'm quite proud of the bball guys la, but the gerls. i was shocked they got those results lo. then walk around the sch looking at this type of results i feel very superior cois like our results are like much better than them lo. sumone from em1 2nd best class can give me 235. gosh. for us like the whole class got 240 and above lo. so like really disappointed with this years batch. our batch rocks! 5j, 6i, 6j 6k! u go dudex! *claps* so now i jsut hope my brother's batch which is next yr p6 will like pull up the standard again lo. which is like so impossible. so hai. leave it to God lo. yea. so just hope they buck up! dun throw dlss de face away. DLSS rocks!
and ya. this yr e gerl who topped e sch was Chui Yi! peep from passion min! yay.. so proud of her. bring glory to god. lols. =PpP

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 2:58 PM

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Tuesday, November 23, 2004

*sobs*
Ytd was a terrible day. ya. my sis took my phone sms my 2 good frens. she did sumthing which she was not supposed to do. n now no one believes me. i wun mind if they hate me or smth. but at least believe me! i would never do something like that. hai. what do i haf to do to make u ppl believe me?
if i ever lose either one of the two frens, i'll hate her forever. but please believe me.

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 2:38 PM

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Monday, November 22, 2004

yay. i'm finally back home. waaaa. so damn tired. sat i was at my cuzin hse, and like teaching her how ta put up a blog. lols. ok. so tt day alot alot alot of ppl came looking fer me lo. got alot of problems la. so i was on the whole like for sooooo long. slept at 3 am, woke up at 7am. ahhhhh! then todae was supposed to met yang zhi to get booklist, wake up so early in e end sae thrus then give.. ahhhh! wanna die le. i'm so tired. so sh n jh made up their own blog. hahs. latest craze. lols. ya. so i'm gonna sleep early tonght again. heee

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 5:03 PM

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Friday, November 19, 2004

bleah bleah. todae e last day i'm gonna sleep on my comfy bed in my house. *sobs* hahs. supposed to go malacca with parents tml. but then tml got E-movie on, then i dun wanna miss it. so i tuen up fer church then have ta put up with my cuzins. arghhh. i wanna go dinner wif chal tml budden dunno if her parents can fetch me back to my aunt's hse lo. hai. i dun wanna stay there! but then. xi shen siao wo wan cheng da wo. or whatever that crap is.. hahs

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 3:04 PM

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Thursday, November 18, 2004

urgh. sick sick sick. bleahs. *yawns* so tired. dizzy dizzy. oh well. the days' as boring as usual. didn't sleep well last night lor. hai. anywaes. decided on turning up for E-movie rather than going to m'sia with my parents. then have ta put up at my cuZ hse. hai. dun wanna stay there lei. but i guess it's worth it la. hai. i'm really really bored. nv go out with my frenz and stuff like that. so it's like i'm dying lo. hai

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 2:57 PM

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Wednesday, November 17, 2004

-http://flowgo.com-

+heya grandma+ +fartin bubbles+

hey there. sooooooo bored now. no one online.. wah! ='( today nothing ta do. at home listen to my idiot bro blabber bout his new discman. lols. then darius todae had ta go school could'nt cum over. awwww. so the day was pretty boring without his noise. haha. i'm gonna rot man~ sheesh. lalala.. watching tv now lor, what else ta do. *yawnX* -.-

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 4:12 PM

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Tuesday, November 16, 2004

hmmm. guess i've lost it le bah. 15% left of it i guess..
ya.. hmm. now darius at my hse. -.- playing ps with my mei. then he brought his puppy dog down. weeEee. name's brownie.. hahs. cute! running round my hse.. lolX. yeps. oh ya. i'm into this testimonial thingy. so ppl hu wan testi can cum look for me. yays. alright. anything else i'll update.

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 2:27 PM

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Monday, November 15, 2004

alright. todae morning went out with family go ah yi hse lo.. then played badminton, squash, table tennis and swam lar.. wa. my table tennis 'skills' pick up from the pro, my dad + mum. everything oso pro. badminton la, swimming la, table tennis la.. haiya. take my hat off to them. haha. the days are always good and like happy, but it's e nights that i dread. ya. ytd was sms-ing a lazy n tired stinky cheese till like 11 plus. =X just ta like confide in sumone lo. hai. i was feeling tt sumhow after all tt happened, i reaslied tt no one seemed to really really care anymore. and i'm feeling lonely lo. and terrible. so ya. simple as tt. ppl asked me ta like go out wih my frenx and stuff blah blah. but it's like all a joke ta them. to them, i'm forever tt cheerful gerl who nv cries n stuff lo. but in actually fact. i'm not. putting up a strong front. few ppl understand. hai. life stinks. ny life rather.

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 3:36 PM

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Sunday, November 14, 2004

Well..Changed my blog skin. Can relate to me better don't you think? trapped. Yea.
So todae's Grace's bdae..My youngest sis. Although like the whole hse full of noise, i sumhow feel lost n alone in this crowd.. HaiZ.

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 8:10 PM

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Thursday, November 11, 2004

Hmmm..Tired. Early in da morn dad woke us up go westcoast park play..
So hot.. But really fun lar..With uncle keen they all. Yea.. Whole of the few hours we were dere like playing badminton with the pro(my dad) .. LoLX. Run n run n run.. Whack n whack n whack. Then after tt went ta Ah yi hse for a swim. Like olympic style lar.. Mi n my team(mei mei n didi + uncle keen) hahss.. Did sprinting.. Then like copy e 'Ren Wo Au You' somersault.. Pro right? Yea man..hahs.
Well..Now tt things are like ok.. Hope it'll all be back to norm loRX.. Hai.

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 2:40 PM

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Wednesday, November 10, 2004

Cried myself to sleep last night. Again. Alright.Conference call btwn us, quarrelled i guess. Made it seem as if it all was my fault. But still i'm tryin so hard to keep them together. To the extent of me getting hurt more and more over again. Yes it is true at in this current situation i'm e one getting hurt e most. But still i'm tryin to do what i can and what i should since i'm e cause of it. Maybe i should'nt have interfered in both of their lives, i've caused too much nonsense.. Cannot take it le.. But tell me, is it so difficult to hate sumone who has caused so much hurt continuously to me? Hearing what they said, i just felt so inferior and like e 3rd party. Well this is it. I've cried over and ovr again over this tupid and useless person. Day after day. When i'm bored, i cry. hearing music, i cry. Whatever i'm doing, i'm forever crying. But for what? Am i hurt or something? Juz feel so helpless.. Juz ta let u ppl noe. you're e 2nd person in my life tt has made me cry like this alright. I want to hate u! Juz let our relationshio remail that simple bahZ..
Kor.. Dun noe if you'll understand la k..But haiZ..

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 2:57 PM

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Tuesday, November 09, 2004

The truth is out. He scolded my jieZ blah blah. So it cums down to both of our faults rite? It's never never mr so and so's fault. Fine then. Despite the hateful and hurtful things he's done to me i just can't bring myself to hate him. Why? I still won't give up so easily. Kor i noe u will want to know what happened. I'll tell you when i've calmed down alright. I can't take it anymore. I'll try my best to hate him. But i can't. I still feel for him the way i felt for him before.

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 3:58 PM

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Monday, November 08, 2004

"Never look back," we said
how was I to know I'd miss you so?
Loneliness up ahead,emptiness behind
Where do I go?

And you didn't hearall my joy through my tears
all my hopes through my fears
did you know,
still I miss you somehow?

(CHORUS)>

From the bottom of my broken heart
there's just a thing or two I'd like you to know
you were my first love,
you were my true love
from the first kisses to the very last rose
from the bottom of my broken heart
even though time may find me somebody new
you were my real love
I never knew love
'til there was you
from the bottom of my broken heart

"Baby," I said,"please stay.
Give our love a chance for one more day
"we could have worked things out
taking time is what love's all about
But you put a dart
through my dreams
through my heart
and I'm back where I started again
never thought it would end

(CHORUS)

You promised yourself
but to somebody else
and you made it so perfectly clear
still I wish you were here

(CHORUS)
"Never look back," we said
How was i to noe, i's miss you so?

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 8:56 PM

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Alright. I feel like a failure. My frenz are having probs. I'm helping them to solve them of cos. But the thing is, i can't even solve my own probs, hu am i to help them with theirs? Oh gosh..
Happy birthday to Jia hao! HahZ..
Anywae..Kinda happy todae la basically. Mumzzie brought me to OG buy alot of stuff. She was in the shopping mood today..HahZ.. Then erm..Dunno la, juz felt really happy lorZ..
Got my fingers burnt while doin the cards for ahem and ahem(those 2 ppl, u'll cum to know)..OuchZ..
Then my neighbour. Well, i was like burning paper for sum handicraft not even close to her so called 'side', and she was complaining the whole time. Even blamed my mom for not being serious enuf and that the piece of burnt paper UNDER her cupboard could set fire to the whole block when it did'nt even have sparks or anything. With me at that scene of 'crime', she could still think i was 'playing wiyh fire' like a 5 yr old kid! Gosh! So pissed..Might as well isolate herself or live in space so no one would mess up her life and stuff. Selfish freak..
-Miss him-

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 8:19 PM

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Sunday, November 07, 2004

Alright..Since everyone tells me to face it, i will. I will no matter what. I still care for him. I still care alot. He may not like me, but this is all i can do. I've never once forgotten him. Not once.I've tried hard. But no, i failed. But plz do not ignore me. i now noe how it feels to keep those feelings inside. It feels terrible. Ur heart could sink to a point it could sink no longer. Tt's y i chose to let it out. I'm sorry. But yes.

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 7:36 PM

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Saturday, November 06, 2004

follow my heart? Follow my heart? If i do, where will it take me? Will i be happy? Or will it be tantamount to throwing myself into a hole tt i can never get out of? I've been hurt wae too many times by this sorta thing and i juz can't take it anymore.. I wanna hold on. I kept it inside for so long but i can't take it..Is it even wrong to like sumone? So wrong tt i have ta keep my feelings inside of me? I'm tryin not to, but it seems impossible to. Gosh i feel terrible..

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 8:21 PM

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Friday, November 05, 2004

Gosh..i feel sooooo terrible..I wanna cry!
The past few days were kinda nice i guess, though i tend to miss that someone out. Really bored todae. Came back from choir at round 12. Had my lunch. Sat on the table, did'nt feel like eating at all, though i was really really hungry. I felt like lying on my bed and just rot and lock myself in. I had no idea wad was happening. Juz tht i..Ahhh, forget it..
Joanne called. Told me sumthing which i could'nt get over. Someone actually set me up and told his gerl who was my best fren tt i was trying to break the 2 of them up! And to think she herself went around trying to tell ppl i was trying to seduce her guy when all i sae is a mere 'hi' and 'bye'. I've never met him b4, let alone like know him! Gosh..Now it's like all my fault. Then i told Zhi hao. He called too. HaiZ..Who e heck did this and why?! I just wanna let u noe i did'nt do anything alrite..
-something seems to be missing here; someone?-

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 7:41 PM

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Tuesday, November 02, 2004

OwwWww!
Ytd went for chalet rite..I tell u! Everything was a diasater. And i'm gonna put it all up! I'm so freaking pissed with my mother! IT was raining. I fell down. I called here for help. She yelled at me. Nv told me i could take a cab earlier. And left me walking on e road drenched from head to toe with a terribly scraped knee. And when i took a cab back and it cost a bomb, she did'tn even pay me! And she blamed me for being irresponsible and notstaying overnight, when it was she herself hu won't let me stay overnight! WTF! I'm like sooooooo freakin pissed!
My knee hurts sooooo badly..I dun feel like goin for e Science camp tml.I can hardly walk! Gosh!

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 3:47 PM

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Sunday, October 31, 2004

Ah I'm back..Ytd went fer cell outing at Botanics..Play captians ball like sooooo long..Then got our shoes and stuff all gross and dirty. Went back ta church wash up..HaHZ.. Stinky man..
EZ-link outta cash and had no cash on me..Gosh..Then like take so many buses, when i got home felt like puking..-- Bus sick-- Sit on my table staring into thin air suddenly got e inspiraton to write a compo..So now still working on it la..Hmm..When it's done i'll be publishing it..WeEEee!
-----Bored-----

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 11:18 AM

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Friday, October 29, 2004

I really got no idea whether i shld be unhappy or happy..
Anywaes todae skit was up la..I tell u, it was like a disaster! Then Mrs Clark retiring..*sobs* Gonna miss her..Taken over by tt Mdm Lee or smth. She's like soooooo horrible lor..No right to take over Mrs Clark..Wah! Then as usual, stupee Chee How got me ta go up stage present her with tokens of appreciation la..Then is like 'chairperson of 1F' then i went ' I'm not e chairperson!' HahaZ..But i was really happy la..
Then can't wait for Mon to cum. Goin to escape with ex-lasallians as well with my class. Hooray!! Hmm..This holidays are not goin to be really cool..Gotta go back sch for like sooo many days. Then like got sum stupee Humanities n Science camp on one after another..Dun even noe y i signed up for them..I'm like gonna be sooooo dead beat! Urgh..

oUt wiF fRiEnDs //* 3:39 PM

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